NEW
FIND!!! "Alter
Ego Limited Edition CD"
The
remaining copies are at: "DHC
Limited Editions" Page
14
years later, deep in the basement,
18 copies of this signed, numbered first
Edition surfaced. The 2nd edition,
one of my most popular independent releases,
is completely different than this intimate,
solo 1st Edition. Read on to find out how.
I
interviewed myself to help me tell the story
of this CD:
WHAT
is this? This is a signed and
numbered copy of “Alter
Ego,” which was the first version of one
of my biggest-selling independent albums, “AlterED
Ego.” This
was one of the first projects I did after I left
GRP records, where I was recording “Contemporary
Jazz” instrumentals.
WHEN
was this created? Recorded/released
in 1996
WHERE
was it created? I recorded
and mixed “Alter
Ego” in
my own studio, “Crisis Island Studio,” which
was in a periodically-flooded basement in Davis
Square, Somerville (Massachusetts)
WHO
was involved? I
co-produced this album with Bob Kroeger, who
had produced my pre-GRP release “Round
the Corner.” The executive producer was
my then-assistant Stephanie Maillet. This entire
album is harp & vocals,
except for the last cut, which is voice & synth,
so this is a very intimate and personal production
- just me in my studio.
The
ARTWORK and the RECORDING Sessions:
The front cover is one of my favorite pictures
of me [I'll try to get the original to show
you
what
photo it came from]
The
back is a great laughing photo (in my estimation)
wearing a wacky pair
of glasses (or are they swimming
goggles? I can’t remember) [I'll try to
get that up here, too]. I really liked the laughing
photo until someone (probably my brother)
said, “Wow, you let people see your old
fillings?” I didn't know I should be be
embarrassed about that. Since when are fillings
a fashion faux pas (sigh) … In any case,
I changed it in the 2nd edition. It was less
expensive than going back to get white-colored
fillings.
The
right side of the cover is from a glorious
day for me, when I found an entire junkyard of
rusted train cars. I’ve always loved rust,
always loved trains, so this little bit of cracking
paint is very meaningful to me.
Inside
are a few pictures of me that I really love.
Inside the cover is
a transparency of me dancing
in a
big striped shirt, my hair in braids. You can
barely see what it is, but I love the swirl
of the shirt
and the shape of the image. Then there’s
a picture of me on my 5th birthday, just about
to topple
my cake, and a wonderful picture I stumbled
on, of me at 7, my arms wide, just before I
hit my awkward-age, which started at 8 and
lasted 'til next year.
I
just opened one of these jewel-cases and realized
each one includes a little note-card explaining
it’s
one of the first 2000 printed and numbered
copies, and asking for feedback. But don’t
write back to that address – I moved
10 years ago!
The
Story Behind Each Cut on the Album:
The
starred pieces below were changed, or removed
for the 2nd Edition of “Altered
Ego,” which
is one of my most popular CDs. A few
of the cuts remained exactly the same.
*Dance
the Way You Dance (3:10)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
I removed this from the 2nd Edition, and then
re-recorded in a much more enlarged production-version
on “Artist’s
Proof” a few years later. This is a
stripped-down version with just harp and
voice, but I love the
purity of it. This song falls into the category
of "Songs I Sing to Move Me through a Bad
Funk About Myself" -- I long to make a music-video
of this song, in a re-recorded version, with
people of every size, shape and ability I
can find dancing in a hundred different ways.
*Beck’s Blues (3:59)
by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp
I was totally inspired by Jeff Beck, and
wanted to write a Blues about it. In the
2nd Edition,
I wanted to experiment with distorted harp
sound, so I re-recorded it (at least I
think I rerecorded
it) and added mild distortion. distortion.
This tune eventually became the foundation
for the
song “Make
the Best of What You Got,” which
I have yet to record, but which I often
perform
live.
Belinda (4:37)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
I
re-recorded this song for the second edition, “Altered
Ego,” and then listened back
and decided I liked this original version
better, so ended
up using this version on both editions.
Here’s
a link to the story
of this beloved tree,
which is no more -- here's a link
to the wonderful YouTube
video by Mike
Chvaney of me singing to Belinda with
the whole Arlington High School Choir
one week before she was cut down --
and here’s
a link to my
favorite photo blog of pictures of
Belinda.
All
I can say is that this is a true story, and that
a few days after I was told the name of this
tree, I was walking down the bikepath, looked
up at the tree and within 20 yards, I had begun
to sing the melody. The rest of the song was
simply a matter of saying exactly what else happened
and how I fell in love with this beautiful giant
that is no more.
As
a postscript, after I'd sung this song for years,
a man came up to me after a show and said, "You
know that tree you sing about, Belinda? Yeah
... well, I know that tree. I know it well. But
it's not called Belinda. It's called .... Bertha."
Well,
the next time I saw the tree, I looked up, and
thought, "Hunh, Belinda by day, Bertha by night
..." and the next thing I knew I was singing
a new song about the tree's alter ego
"Birth a' Bertha."
(I
later discovered she was also called "Tim" ...
but I'm sticking with Belinda and Bertha).
Wild
Mountain Thyme/Summertime (4:49)
Traditional / Gershwin
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
I started putting these two tunes together
when I was on tour in Germany, very struck
by how
the Bluesiness of “Summertime” begins
to infuse the pretty Scottish tune “Wild
Mountain Thyme” and give it a completely
different flavor.
996 (5:11)
by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp
This
is the original solo harp version of the piece
that became a centerpiece
of my
2006
project “Invention & Alchemy” (DVD & CD) – if
you know the version from that project,
this will sound like a whirlwind – I
played it so fast! “996” is
the story of the 996th night of the 1001
Arabian Nights. As you may know, the significance
of the
1001 Arabian Nights is that storyteller
Sheherezade was married to a Sultan whose
general practice
was to behead his brides the morning after
their wedding night. To avoid this fate,
Sheherezade
began a story on her wedding night that
came to a cliff-hanger right at dawn. The
Sultan was so
intrigued by the story that he couldn’t
bring himself to kill the storyteller,
and so she continued
this cliff-hanger-at-dawn approach for
1001 nights, each story dovetailing into
the next
(kind of like
modern-day soap operas).
I
always wondered, “Why
1001 nights? What happened around night
996 that brought
the stories,
5 nights later, to an end.” I decided
it was that on this night, the Sultan himself
learned
to tell stories, and with this new, real
power, he lost the need to compensate for
his deep sense
of powerlessness.
*Congratulations,
You Made it this Far (the Birthday Song) (4:45)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, keyboard & vocals
I wrote this song for my own birthday,
just to try to get me through the trauma
of it.
The version
on this CD is acoustic and -- although
I really love the updated version in the
2nd Edition -- this one is so intimate
and personal, I find it very moving.
*Joshua (3:48)
Traditional / arr. Henson-Conant (with
extra words by D. Henson-Conant)
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
I
love this cut – I really don’t
know why I removed it from the 2nd edition
of the CD.
I mean, as I listen to it now I can
hear how I might want to record it differently,
but I
love the idea of this song. Like a
lot of other
music of mine, it’s a song that
refers to the “back-story” of
either a well-known story or song.
So in this song, I wanted to explore
what was going
through Joshua’s head when he
brought the walls down - and what does
that say about music and how it truly
can break walls down. So I
added words and musical sections to
give voice to that part of the story,
the human connection part.
*Bring
it All Down (4:24)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
Until I re-listened to this a few days
ago, I hadn't realized how much I enjoy
the sequence from "Joshua" to "Bring it
All Down" and what it says about human
connection.
This
is a completely solo version of this
song (no bass, no
percussion,
no
overdubs as in the 2nd Edition). The
song itself I wrote after a phone call
with my best friend, so thankful for
how she can mellow me out and pull me
back down to earth again. Another
friend once
told me that when she first heard
this song, she
thought it was kind of an ADHD
torch song. All I
can say is that I’ve
never been diagnosed …
Siana’s
Dream: The Music Box (5:43)
by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp
This is a simple little Mexican waltz
I originally recorded for GRP, but
I wanted
to
record it again
because compositionally, there are
parts of the song that were left out in
the
GRP recordings,
and I wanted to include them. It’s
an instrumental that tells the story of
a young Mexican girl living
in California. When she goes to bed, she
listens to a music box her Grandmother
gave her, and dreams
that the two dancers who spin on top of
the music box are herself and the boy she
loves.
*Nobody
Half as Strong (5:16)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
I re-recorded this for the 2nd edition,
and shortened it by almost a minute
This song is about my mother, and
her escape to romantic fantasy that
led her
to elope
with my
father. It’s about losing my father – not
in reality, but losing the fantasy of who
he was supposed to be – to her, a
woman and to me, a girl. And it’s
about the dream of how strong I might
have been if I had had
a father to hold
me when I was scared at night.
Cindy,Cindy (3:50)
Traditional / arranged by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
This is a song that my grandmother sang
to me when I was a kid. She’d put
me in the wheelbarrow, wheel down to the
back garden and sing as we went.
This is another case of a quirky love-song
that I often heard as a kid, and that began
to haunt
me in my teens, wanting to know what the ‘back-story’ was – wondering
if there was there more to the song,
and adding my own words and my own meaning
to it. The first
verse is traditional, but the other 3
are
ones I wrote when I was in my teens.
*There’s
a Boat (4:00)
Words & Music by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
This is one of my favorite songs, but
I’ve
never been satisfied with a performance
or recording of it, maybe because I
originally wrote it for
piano and then lost the original accompaniment.
This recording is probably the closest
I’ve
ever gotten to how I want it to sound,
but I removed it from the 2nd edition,
knowing I can get closer.
Irene,
Goodnight (5:07)
Huddie “Led Belly” Ledbetter
/ Additional words by Deborah Henson-Conant
Deborah Henson-Conant, harp & vocals
This is one of my favorite recordings
ever - and this DID make it into
the 2nd Edition of this CD. I’ve
never performed this piece in concert
and, although I’ve
wanted to arrange it for string orchestra,
I’ve
never been able to do it. This was
a one-time improvisation
that captures for me the back-story
of this song. I often
wonder what makes someone write a
particular song – what’s
the context in which it was first
sung, where would it fit in a story?
"Irene Goodnight" always haunted me. It was often presented as a drinking song
-- but when I listen to the words
...
Sometimes
I live in the country
Sometimes I live in the town
Sometimes I take a great notion to jump
in the river and drown...
...it
feels so emotional, so filled with unspoken
passion. That's the human story I was
looking for when I improvised this piece,
and that's what I love about it.