There are secret things I only share with myself or people close to me. Or I sneak them in somewhere and don’t acknowledge that I’m sharing them.
I have secret songs no one has heard, secret drawings, secret poems and thoughts. And what would happen if I shared them? Would it demean them? Would I lose my personal connection to them?
This is my martini-glass guy. He flowed out of my pencil Jan. 17, 2009. In the glass is exactly what I need at any moment. When I drink it I am filled with the power of my own desire.
One thing I do is share with myself my fears and hopes about things I do or am scared to do, so here are my fears and hopes about sharing Martini-Guy.
- A fear I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that I will lose my deep personal exclusive relationship him if I share him with others
- A fear I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that someone will steal him – though I have no idea how that might happen
- A fear I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that sharing him will open my mind to thoughts about whether my drawings are ‘good’ or ‘bad’ or what I should ‘do’ with them – when my drawings are a secret joy for me and that joy is deeply important to me
- A fear I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that I won’t know what blog category to list him under and I’ll categorize him wrong
- A fear I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that someone will write and say “Hey, you already shared martini-glass guy five years ago on Facebook! What’s with this ‘secret’ thing? Don’t you remember what you do????”
- A fear I have about sharing my fears and hopes about martini-glass guy is people will say “Why did you add all those fears and hopes? You ruined the power of the post.”
- A fear I have about sharing my fears and hopes about martini-glass guy is that people will say, “Wow, you sure have a lot more fears than you have hopes. No wonder you’re screwed up.”
- A fear I have about sharing my fears and hopes is that someone will comment that I shouldn’t be afraid, which implies there’s something wrong about having fears – and the fact is I do have them
- A hope I have about sharing my fears and hopes is that someone will comment that they have these fears and hopes, too, and they loved seeing them written out
- A fear I have about sharing the martini-guy is that people may think I love martinis and expect me to want to drink them in social situations
- A fear I have about sharing the martini-guy is that people may think I love martini-glasses and give me beautiful, delicate martini glasses as presents when I’m on tour and I will have to figure out how to get them home and they will break
- A hope I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that my relationship with him will grow in ways I can’t imagine
- A hope I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that he will serve to others exactly what they need in that glass – and maybe they’ll tell me what it was they were able to drink from that glass and what it gave them the power to share
- A hope I have about sharing martini-glass guy is that I’ll get more comfortable sharing
- A hope I have about sharing my hopes and fears is that I will see the fears I have as simply fears I have – not truths – and I will know they’re just as important to acknowledge as the hope. I think they might be the olive.
The thing I like about martini-glass guy is the sophistication mixed with wistfulness. I’m new to your blog – and I look forward to more drawings to think about.
Thank you, Nancy! Hearing that definitely makes me want to share more of them.
He’s delightful – and I suspect there are a host of other characters waiting to be shared, too. What instrument does he play? Is he part of a jazz band when he’s not serving up wisdom? :=)
To me, his name is kinda long and generic though…maybe that means a poll to find his true moniker? I’d love to see more of these lyrical drawings of yours…please do keep sharing. They would make great images for merchandise. He’d make me smile every morning on my coffee cup, etc!
What a great idea! Of course, I could put him on CafePress or something, so that he could grace people’s mornings exactly as you described!
After re-reading my comment, I’m sorry for being so presumptuous. Since I refer to all my artworks with “literal descriptive names” until I think of their permanent name that suits “them,” I unfairly assumed you were doing that, too. Perhaps that is his final name? Either way, forgive my spontaneous out loud assumption earlier. 🙂
Honestly, I’m sure this series of characters would all be equally adorable and very marketable (I have a marketing background). Have no fear. They show yet another lovely dimension to your talents. We all want to see MORE!
ps…LOVED “Happy Song” – and I prefer the 1st/more animated version…as it lends more of a unique atmosphere. Hopefully there will be a jazz CD sooner rather than later…
Ha ha, Tracey – no worries! You’re right that this character does NOT have a name (yet). Presumptuous is fine. I do find martini-glasses very, very elegant and I always loved olives on sticks ever since I was a kid and saw a picture of “an olive sticking out its pimento.” Martinis are OK, but the idea of a special kind of glass for a particular drink is especially appealing to me, like some kind of historical conspiracy of whimsy about packaging martinis. Like martinis themselves decided to have a to the throne of drinks and all conspired to wear the same shaped glass. Like … is the elegance of martininess the GLASS or the CONTENTS? See what I mean about how fascinating the martini and its glass are and why this guy MUST have a martini-glass, whatever may be IN it?
[Meanwhile, sitting in my local cafe, totally immersed in my computer, I look up from time to time to see a couple in the table against the wall transforming – I ‘understand’ that they’re different couples and that I just didn’t notice the changing-of-the-guard – but they’re similar enough (a beautiful mid-age woman facing me and her slender, grey-haired male partner with his back to me)to give the impression they’re the same couple … man, this must be some good coffee I’m drinking this morning!!]
In any case – it’s sounds like you’re encouraging me to put him into CafePress or even offering to help make that happen? Thanks for the encouragement!
Hey DHC: I sent you a long reply via email…did you get it on Aug. 8 – called “testing the waters?
PS…we can we see more sketches of your secret “crew?”
Thanks Tracy! I just responded to that email (thank you for the reminder!!!) Yes I’d love to share more of the crew – just in the middle of launching my new membership site now, so that’s taking precedence (over everything!) until it’s up and running. And I love that you’re pushing this!’
A hope I have is that you will always keep sharing like this and stretching into the light.
Thank you Trista. A hope I have is that you will, too.
Thank you so much for sharing martini-glass guy. He brought heartfelt, uplifting encouragement and good cheer. Endearing little character!